For the last 6 months, I have struggled through fatigue affecting my mind and body. There was an emptying of all strength, draining completely that even a small amount of work or excitement led to shortness of breath. Sleep was shallow and so there was no rest. I thought that it couldn’t get any worse than this, then I contracted a virus that affected my digestion. I couldn’t eat anything that wouldn’t cause abdominal cramps. I felt weak and helpless. However, I knew God had a purpose in it and that morning when I prayed and asked Him - this is what I read:
“A bruised reed He will not break, and a smoldering wick He will not snuff out” Matt.12-20
“Yet I am always with you” Psalm 73:23
“I the Lord have called you in righteousness and will hold your hand” Isaiah 42:6
And from Spurgeon(Morning and Evening):
“The God of Providence limits and controls the manner, intensity, repetition and effects of all our sickness: each sleepless hour predestined, each relapse ordained, each depression of the spirit foreknown, each sanctifiying result eternally purposed. Affliction is not a haphazard event. He commits no errors in measuring out the ingredients which constitute the medicine of souls.”
Weakness through illness is humbling. I don’t like going through it, but God in His wisdom teaches me so much through it. It is not by might that I accomplish homeschooling but through His Spirit. Actually it was all His strength.
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